To each their own

Well, a lot has happened since I last posted. 98% of which I don't want to get into. That 98% has taught me a life lesson. I guess I should say that I have known it all along, but this experience has driven it home. This lesson is that no one can create happiness in my life but me. I should never give other people the power to make me happy or sad. I have been pretty down for the last couple of weeks and have struggled greatly to get out of my funk.

The enlightenment came this evening as I talked with Carol. This probably sounds completely whacked out, but as much as I didn't always like the Carol she was before she made her journey through her own hell, I feel that in some warped way, it was good in that it has allowed her to have a perspective on things the rest of us don't have. I love that she is able to provide truly nonjudgemental assessment of situations. I owe her hugely, majorly, in the biggest way. It's not that she had some magic wand that waved over me as she chanted ancient healing verses. It was more the out look she shared. The experiences she shared. And the love and understanding she showed.

I entitled this to each their own for one reason. It is up to each of us to be our own person. It is up to each of us to make our own happiness. It is up to each of us to make the decision daily to live our own life for us, not for those around us. This is not to say that others don't matter or that we shouldn't be considerate of others. What it does mean is at the end of the day, we answer to ourselves. Be confident in your decisions, be secure in who you are. Do not let others bring you down. If they manage to bring you down, don't let them keep you there. Life is short, and if you decide for it to be, life can be oh so sweet.

This is what makes my happiness, my sweetness, my joy. In as much as they drive me completely insane, they are my reason for wanting to experience complete happiness. The loves of my life.....

Peace, love, and sheer happiness....Kathy